my man = my doctor

I miss my man so much :(

but it's been 3 weeks since last time we met..

thanks God he passed a test to be a doctor :')

but you know 1 thing, I hate doctor honestly

this is my last conversation before he sleep

me : I don't want you to be a doctor babe

him : as much as I don't want you to love me, it's impossible hon :*

well so I'll wait him to be a great doctor I wish :)

remind me if I forget to posting in my blog :p

xoxo dean

delicioushoes

let it go

if you love something for sure, let it go .. if it comes back to you it's yours. if it doesn't it never was and it's not meant to be :)

i really miss you :(

dear you ..
i really miss you, do you feel the same with me ?
i don't think so ..
i should let you go for now ..
if i can have you for my whole life i just wanna be your friend ..

shocking news :'(

My brother told me cats want to die alone. I'm completely heartbroken and if she has passed away I just want to know so I can have some closure. She's never been away from me for more than a couple of hours if she goes outside. I really miss momo so much as you know :'(

old friends old life :)

they are my dreams comes true , my wish become reality

i love you guys

all of you :')

my first shoot :)

hahaha , i'm nerd yeah ! sorry for this picture

should i beggin' your apologize ? :)

pray for momo :')

2 days my momo didn't back to home :(

'anyone who find momo please call me at deanmartika :)

NO !! it didn't help :(

#prayformomo

me and mom's

spend my SADnite with momma it feels like heaven in the world

hahhahaha , poor me

my momma gonna rock your world

since my moms got her new phone she's become a photo monster

yeah she's really my MOMster

well i love you anyway mom :)

my role model !

told yaaaa i love this dress so much :)

look at yourself and believe it

this dress is from ichy's sister and this shoes from tiara amanna , i'll borrow it by the way , after i played basketball , hhahahaha freaking funny

try to keep open minded

whenever i try to comparing my self with them i always regret abaout what should i do , am i made a big mistake ? or something ..
i feel i'm not blessing and it's terrible for my relationship between me and God ..
it's so complicated and feel some kinda of disgusting with my self ..
God i hope i gonna be  your human who always full of bless and always open minded ..

cheers up deeee ^.^

tuk kutuk hamtaro tidur :*

living a life

hay there, i'm again..
dare to believe it that living a life isnot simple as you write something under your book..
hahaha..
ppl always more easy to angry then forgiven, easy to speaking then listening..
i don't want to living a life like that..
i try to controlling my emotion and my feeling about thie anger..
some kinda of anger management, hehe
back to live and dance ..
sayonara

friday morning

it's ussual friday morning when i wake up, i realize so much anger still controlling me because drugs who given by my 'lil sister in my drink. i'm not drunk as you know, just a 'lil bit dizzy. 'you are young and drunk, that's my mom said about me' i'm noooot drunk mom's please, my sister just gave me some stupid 'puyer' ahahahaha .. i love my sister but my friday isn't same as a FREEDAY again *sigh*