try to keep open minded

whenever i try to comparing my self with them i always regret abaout what should i do , am i made a big mistake ? or something ..
i feel i'm not blessing and it's terrible for my relationship between me and God ..
it's so complicated and feel some kinda of disgusting with my self ..
God i hope i gonna be  your human who always full of bless and always open minded ..

cheers up deeee ^.^